Dont write when you're mad

Im trapped. Like that guinea pig in a famous novel, I seem to need an operation to be smarter. Sounds funny ey. I felt like Im trapped inside a maze. and i dont know how to get my way out. the worse thing is, I made that stupid maze!

I dont know what becomes of my life in this strange place. I hate the people. i dont like tha way i look. i get nauseatic at the very unfamiliarity of the place. Its like im in first grade again. yet to learn all the things I need to.

I even hate the fact that Im staying in my relatives' place. Hell, why, I need to be alone. This people keps getting the wits out of...grrrr...

why am i even hoping to get a good shot at thus crazy job i'll be holding in a couple of days???

whew.